i am trying hard to get out of this emptiness...hollowness.

burying myself with work...calling up a friend...listening to optimistic songs...doing stuff for the people i love...looking out of the window for blue skies...

sometimes i sit at the forum and stone. i wonder if some of the people are as happy as they seem. but i guess in the company of friends...nobody wants to pull a long face. maybe i am not disguising as well as they are.

and i seem to have forgotten how i felt before all this.

i wish i am somebody else...i wish i am somewhere else...i wish i am a child again. ignorant and innocent.

so tired of thinking of maybes and what ifs.

i hope there will be a light at the end of this dark and long tunnel...