got into deejay group! grin. was anxiously waiting for 2 weeks for the person to call me up. phew. finally...i can't wait to get into the studio :)

met up with dee and fiona (the bdae gal..hee) for a nice looong chat at Breko's, Holland V. love that place! esp the comfy black sofas at the second level. Holland V is so much better than Orchard. a really cool palce to hang out with good food and pubs minus the oppresive crowd. yeah i put Holland V as my second choice hangout, after city hall. but that's probably only because Esplanade's there :) i miss the outdoor performances.

It's been a rather long time since we really sat down and talked. felt cozy-dozy :) sitting with old friends and a drink...what more can you ask for?

i know this may sound really old. but this is exactly how i am feeling these days. suddenly i just had this strong realisation -wham- that nothing really belongs to us in this world. what's the point of holding on tightly to all that we have? or pursuing relentlessly after things we are not meant to possess?

but still there are people and things that i stubbornly refused to let go of. Loving them, whether reciprocated or not, has become a habit. they already play roles too important in my life that attempting to pluck them out by the root will almost certainly spell another trip into the dark tunnel.

oh well. maybe the past few weeks of mindless scurrying around has taken a toll on me. and no, i have not completed my rat race yet. not that i see any end to it in the near future. but i guess i ought to be glad that i have found my ways to keep me sane and tide me through such periods.

i am happy i am back to jotting down tunes and lyrics...fiddling with the tape recorder and tinkling piano keys. i am rather amazed by how fast ideas come and go :) but still, everytime i hum and scribble, i think of you...and thank you for showing me the way into this magical world.

i am missing you, but not in that way. not anymore.